Best bit of therapy

2 yeas ago my depression was at it’s worst I self harmed on a daily basis and suicide attempts were regular. As Christmas drew nearer my parents wanted to get my sister a present for being so amazing at this time and me one to help make me a bit better.
They decided on gettig a dpg a dream Christmas present fpr me and my sister. Except we both had different favourite breeds. Eventually my mum convinced my dad to get us one each. So on Christmas morning 2011 me and my sister got the shock of our lives.

I couldn’t believe it I had a dog not one but two. Ever since that morning these dogs have helped in ways no one else could. Without them I literally would not be here today they are my life.

Many blogs I follow about people with AS have pets. I now understand it pets are the best therapy in my opinion. For me I love them because they love me uncoditionally. When they look at me I know they don’t see.me any different than anyone else. They are always there for me and they are the best companion.

So this is a post for my two boys Buddy and Charley who I love unconditionally ❤

image

Buddy

image

image

Start of a long tiring journey.

Today is going to be the start of a long journey for me and my family. Last year when I was in Sixth Form I joined up to do the Duke of Edinburgh Scheme. Sadly it didn’t go well, the teacher organising it did not give me the help. Then the day before one of my A Level exams the teacher asked me to come up to the school alone to tell me I’m no longer allowed to do it. This is a week after she sent letters home to my friends about a trip, who then asked me if I got one causing me panic. This is just one of numerous failings by this teacher.

So today is the day when we’re starting to contact the Duke of Edinburgh Scheme in the hope the School is no longer able to do it. They failed me badly and caused me a lot of stress to where I was having to take sedatives on the days I was doing my A Level exams. I never want this to happen to some one else, that’s why we are starting this.

Scared but Excited

Today my provisional driving licence arrived. I think it has the second worst photo of me on it, the first is my passport of course. But this means I can now start learning to drive. While I am excited about being able to drive around and not have to rely on my parents or the comfy bus (which is not comfy). But I am also very scared and nervous. My mum has told me it’s like riding a bike. But that didn’t make me feel any better as I finally took off my stabilisers a year after my sister who is two years younger than me. 

I’m also hoping to be able to have passed all my tests by this time next year. That’s if I have not accidently killed myself by driving into something.

I promise I won’t forget

I love writing stories and I want to be an author when i grow up. But I’ve never wrote a poem. So I thought I would give it ago. Here’s my first poem. Please let me know what you think.

I promise I won’t forget all the things we’ve shared
Going to the park and swinging so high we could touch the sky
The grass stained knees as we ran through the fields
Trips to the sea when we’d chase seagulls along the beach
Playing princesses and pirates with swords and shields
Clapping our hands together to childish little rhymes
These are the memories I’ll never forget
For now your all grown up going to make your mark
I’ll give a hug to my best friend
And a kiss to my little sister

5 Little Quotes

One thing that helps me through when hard times are ahead are quotes. I love repeating quotes and they uplift me. I know it my sound stupid but I have a book which I write down quotes that I love. I thought I’d share with you my top 5.

5) “I believe in pink. I believe that laughing is the best calorie burner. I believe in kissing, kissing a lot. I believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong. I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls. I believe that tomorrow is another day and I believe in miracles.” –Audrey Hepburn

This quote to me is a silly a quote. To me it means have fun, don’t care about opinions of others. Be yourself because that’s best thing you can be.

 4) “Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take but by the moments that take our breath away.” -Unknown

This quote to me means make as moments as memorable as possible. It also helps me when I think about the people I lost too soon and that their lives may be short but the moments with them is all that matters.

3) “The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched – they must be felt with the heart.” –Helen Keller

I love this quote as it basically says the best and most beautiful things in the world is love.

2) “I only hope that we don’t lose sight of one thing – that it was all started by a mouse.”-Walt Disney

I love this quote as Walt Disney is saying that the whole phenomenon that is Disney was started by one of the smallest animals, a mouse. It says no matter how far fetched or small it is you can still do anything.

1)  “In spite of everything I still believe that people are really good at heart.”-Anne Frank

This quote is by my hero. Anne knew the Nazi’s were killing Jews and that people were suffering because of WWII but even with all this Anne believed there was good in the world. This helps me especially when my faith feels low as it reminds me we must have faith. because yes there were atrocities all over the world in the early 20th century. But there were also amazing acts of courage, bravery and good.

So there are my top 5 quotes. Do quotes help you at all? And what are your favorite quotes?

No In Between

Over the past few days I have had some amazing days and some terrible days. I know everyday’s not going to be perfect, But looking back I never seem to have and days that are OK,  not either great or bad. I wondered what it was and maybe it was just my perception. For example I understand happy and sad it’s just in between that gets muddled up in my head.

But no my bad days were really bad and my good days were amazing. I just found it confusing how each day can be totally different and I just wondered if anyone else ever has these? I just thought it was very odd and when something’s odd I just have to poke at it and get to the bottom of it.

I Recomend: On That Day (song)

From now on I’m going to aim to write a weekly post on Tuesdays on something I recommend to do with Aspergers or Autism. These will very from books and films to magazines and websites.

On that day is written by a mother about her daughter. It is a beautiful song about how the mother copes with knowing something was different about her daughter and finding out her daughter had autism. I think the lyrics are beautiful and very meaningful. I absolutely love this song and I think it perfectly highlights the worries parents have but it also shows the love of a mother. I think Jayne done an amazing job at writing he song, singing it and making the video. A video full of information on autism and pictures of her daughter.