St George’s Day

Today is St George’s day and I love it. I always like to show off my patriotic spirit because as much as I know England is not perfect I’m really proud to come from here. Today I’ll be wearing red, white and blue. Or any combination of those colours. And also I’ll have to have a full English breakfast except for no egg and black pudding, because I don’t like them.

I hate that England does not celebrate St George’s day very much. I wish we celebrated today like the Irish celebrate St Paddy’s day or how Americans celebrate the 4th of July. Never makes since why the American’s put their dates month then day where as on 4th of July they put is day then month.  Anyway back on track. I wish England would celebrate St George’s day more.

I remember when I was little my mum used to tell me the story of St George and how he beat the Welsh dragon that was sent to destroy England (bet you now know why the dragon’s on the Welsh flag). And that’s how come the patron saint of England is George. I remember my mum would then show me the ring that she always wears (and still does to this day) depicting St George slaying the dragon. So there you have what I think and you’ve also learnt two things that you may not have known/realised;

1)American’s write 4th July different to every other day of the year

2)The Dragon on the welsh flag is suppose to represent the one that was killed by St George

Happy Easter

This weekend is a very important one for me. As part of the religion I believe in this weekend is the most important one of the year and for the whole of Friday and Sunday I have had a candle lit in my room. So for me this weekend is about celebrating the resurrection of Jesus and remembering the sacrifice he made for us. But for me it’s also about being with my family. When we visit relatives giving out eggs we always end up having a drink and catch up. So with out even realising it we are spending time with family. For me this will also be a time to see family who I haven’t seen recently because I’ve been busy. So this year I’m going to really cherish the time with my relatives and I’m going to be able to relax and chill out. Something I’ve not been able to do. But also today it’s the first time my whole immediate family have been able to sit down and have a meal together. So at lunch we will also be celebrating my recent release of a new book Sunken Dreams. Which because it is one of the most important days of the year I’ll be putting it on sale for two weeks.

I wish you all a very Happy Easter and hope you enjoy it doing whatever you do on Easter 🙂

Fishy Friday

Today is Good Friday and because I’m a practicing Catholic I don’t eat meat today, which my parents hate. My mum and dad aren’t religious like me but respect my decisions.However my mum hates that I don’t eat meat today and on Ash Wednesday. I’m a very picky eater and don’t like many food that would give me the nutrients I needed to not eat meat. So every Ash Wednesday and Good Friday are the same for me. I have french toast for breakfast, fruit salad for lunch and fish and chips from the chippy. For me it reminds of back when I was at school when the school only used to serve fish and chips on Fridays for the whole year. I don’t get why my mum says that I should have this plan of food for the day but my mum gave me a really good reason for it. Back when I was six my cousin (in his mid twenties) was babysitting me and my sister on Good Friday. For the whole day he literally fed my prawn cocktail skips as he couldn’t think of anything that was vegetarian for me to eat. While both me and my mum find it funny she doesn’t want me to get stuck on food to eat again. I can see the reason and besides I can’t complain tonight where having a chippy tea.

Memories Flooding Back

Recently an elderly relative of mine has had to down size where they are living. Since they were unable to sort their stuff out then it was up to the younger generation to sort it out. I enjoyed it as I loved seeing all the little stuff where got her for Christmas’ and birthdays that she has still kept. I also loved seeing some of the stuff we used to use when we were kids e.g. handmade toys.

But in the clean up we saw boxes of photo’s. Everyone helping in the clean up and we are all going to scan them and make sure everyone has digital copies of all the photo’s. For me scanning a few of the photo’s last night made me smile. I loved looking through the old photo’s and seeing not only me and other relatives in our younger years but also putting faces to ancestors I’ve never met. I’m now looking forward to doing more albums.

My maternal grand parents when they were courting

Dream Come True

Ever since I was a little girl my parents would always find piles of paper all over the house. Seeing my hand writing they’d ask me if they could put it in recycling. To which I always reply no and that I was writing a story and you never know one day it may be published. To which you can imagine that my parents were amused by it but always showed a smiling and supportive face. My parents wanted to throw one away two years ago and I came back with the same reply. But yesterday they got the biggest shock of their life as yesterday it got published into an eBook.

It’s still sinking in that I’m actually a published writer. This is something I’ve dreamed of my whole life but I never expected it to come true. I just hope this can pave the way for a future in writing. But at the moment I’m over the moon with this.

(view the book here)


Supportive Friends

Recently I’ve just had so much going on with my family. It’s not been my immediately family but extended family on one of my parents sides. Although it’s not in my home it’s something that I can’t escape from even when I’m at home. I’m constantly messaging and talking on the phone to relatives. (Not looking forward to this months phone bill)

One day last week I went out with my friends. It was great to be with the girls and just relax. But another highlight was that I could escape away from the stress of my family. While we were out the girls asked how everything was going and although at the time I didn’t want to talk about it was nice to know that the girls cared about me. It was just a nice relaxing calm day and I can’t wait to see the girls again. And get away from this family just for a day/

Getting A Life Back

When my depression has been at it’s worst I’ve self harmed. Unfortunatly these have know left me with a number of scars at the bottom of my arms. At first I wasn’t to bothered about them but the more people have asked and whispered about them the more I’ve become ashamed. It is now at the point where I always were long sleeves even in summer. Just before my prom in summer 2012 my mum took me to a make up shop where they found a type of concealer that helps cover up scars, it had two pitfalls though.
1. It was very expensive
2. it comes off easily and I have to keep on reapplying it
So it’s something I’ve only been able to use on special occasions.

But as I was getting assessed in August by my GP to see how my metal health was going and she saw how much my scars controlled my life. So she refereed me to the dermatologist, who then referred me to a charity called changing faces that helps people learn how to cover up any problems with the skin with make up available through the NHS. The woman there was lovely and she helped find what would help cover up my scars and taught me how to apply the cream. When we got to the end of the appointment I couldn’t hold back any more and I actually started crying. I couldn’t believe I could have my life back with a 20 minute routine in the morning. But then the woman gave me even better news. She told me that the make up stays on for about 2-3 days and it is waterproof.

Today I received I cream and I was over the moon. I can’t wait till tomorrow when I go out with my friends as because although they know about the scars and don’t judge I’ll be free. I will be able to go into any shop and find a top or dress that I like without having to worry whether it will cover my scars or if I’ve got a cardie that will go with it. Or I can just walk around with wondering wit people will say when they see my arms. I can do anything or can wear anything. I don’t have to spend my life worrying now because I have my life back.