Best bit of therapy

2 yeas ago my depression was at it’s worst I self harmed on a daily basis and suicide attempts were regular. As Christmas drew nearer my parents wanted to get my sister a present for being so amazing at this time and me one to help make me a bit better.
They decided on gettig a dpg a dream Christmas present fpr me and my sister. Except we both had different favourite breeds. Eventually my mum convinced my dad to get us one each. So on Christmas morning 2011 me and my sister got the shock of our lives.

I couldn’t believe it I had a dog not one but two. Ever since that morning these dogs have helped in ways no one else could. Without them I literally would not be here today they are my life.

Many blogs I follow about people with AS have pets. I now understand it pets are the best therapy in my opinion. For me I love them because they love me uncoditionally. When they look at me I know they don’t any different than anyone else. They are always there for me and they are the best companion.

So this is a post for my two boys Buddy and Charley who I love unconditionally ❤





Look behind the front

Most of the time I put on a front most of my friends don’t know I’ve been admitted to hospital for suicide attempts or that I’m suffering from depression. People often say to me “oh you have Asperger’s but you look normal?” Anyone can hide parts of them they don’t want to see you just need to look beyond. Even the people who you hate may be hiding something you don’t know. I seen something on facebook and I thought I’d show you it I thought it really shows my point.


Question 1: If you knew a woman who was pregnant, who had 8 kids
already, three who were deaf, two who were blind, one mentally
retarded, and she had syphilis, would you recommend that she have an abortion?

Read the next question before looking at the answer for this one.

Question 2: It is time to elect a new world leader, and only your vote
counts. Here are the facts about the three leading candidates.
Candidate A: Associates with crooked politicians, and consults with astrologists.
He’s had two Mistresses. He also chain smokes and drinks 8 to 10
martinis a day.

Candidate B He was kicked out of office twice, sleeps until noon, used
opium in college and drinks a quart of whiskey every evening.

Candidate C He is a decorated war hero. He’s a vegetarian, doesn’t smoke, drinks an
occasional beer and never cheated on his wife.

Which of these candidates would be your choice? Decide first, no peeking,
then scroll down for the answer.


Candidate A is Franklin D. Roosevelt.
Candidate B is Winston Churchill.
Candidate C is Adolph Hitler.

And, by the way, the answer to the abortion question: If you said yes,
you just killed Beethoven.

Pretty interesting isn’t it? Makes a person think before judging

Please let me know what you picked. For the first one I picked no as my religous beliefs say abortion is wrong but I did pick candidate C for the second one. I can’t believe my country actually lets me vote if for World Leader I chose Hitler!

School’s Out

Hey everyone so last week I finished school for six weeks for the summer. So many people really enjoy school breaking up. I mean there’s no teachers moaning, no homework, no early mornings and days to relax and do what you please. But in some ways I hate the summer holiday’s yes I’m made up with all those things above but I hate no structure. I have no structure or routine and I struggle to cope without it. I always try to keep some continuity in my holidays like waking up at the same time or going to bed at the same time.

Another thing is with my depression if I don’t get out everyday I just end up getting depressed. So I always try to do one thing a day even if it’s just taking the dogs on a walk. It is hard, but I need to make the most of it as I’ll not get these summer holidays for much no longer.

The normal

So this week has been really hard for me. The LRC I normally work in has been shut for 2 weeks. It means there is only one LRC for the whole sixth form, so you could say it’s a bit cramped. I don’t do crowds and loud noises so it’s hard for being in there. So being back in the normal room next week will make me feel alot better and I’ll be a lot calmer.

Also I have been off school on tuesday and wednesday because of my depression. So at the minute my mind is a bit muddled up and it thinks it’s monday. Some I’m hoping that once a new week starts the everything will go back to normal.

My routine is one of the most vital things for me and I get completely thrown if it changes without warning. So I’m looking forward to next week so I can get back into my routine.