Trying to cope

Some of you may know that for the last week of October I went away on holiday. We gave a family member the number to our key safe so that she could feed our chickens while away. Unfortunately that trust was taken advantage of. This person brought five friends into our home where they drunk alcohol we had in the house, ransacked our house, took drugs and stole from us. The event has left me deeply shaken up and has caused a rift in our family.

A month after what has happened I still struggle on a daily basis to cope with what has gone on. My room was my safe haven. When things got too much for me I would take a step back and go in there. Escaping from the world around me. But now I can barely go in there and only last week was I able to sleep in my own bed with the aid of sleeping tablets.

Today I went to the doctors to see what they could do for my sleep it was during this time she said she wanted to ask me a few questions. At the end of the survey she told me that it was for PTSD. Out of 20 if you scored between 6-10 it was likely you’d have PTSD. Anything higher than 10 meant you defiantly had PTSD. I scored 18. I am still struggling to cope with the trauma and now worry about what life ahead will be like with PTSD.